the worry monster

My God is not dead He is surely alive.

How great is that?! God has just been revealing himself to me over and over this semester in ways I didn't know were possible. Not just through people and creation, but in certain situations and the timing of things. Like how cool is it that He knows all those little things that will happen to you?

Matthew 6:25-34 says: "“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these."

Wow. He takes care of everything that's His, and you better believe you belong to Him.

I was hunting for an internship since last fall, scouring the internet, filling out applications, updating my resume, just searching and searching and searching for something.

It was frustrating, no lie. I started crying in chapel one day in February because I was so overwhelmed. I worry about the future too much sometimes and was just frustrated that I didn't feel a direction. At first I thought going to Africa with Africa Reads was the answer. And I wholeheartedly want to go there one day and believe it will happen. But I needed a longer internship and it wasn't sitting right with me.

Then I thought of all the non-profits I love or working at camp again but just felt like I was missing something. I kept hearing about other Harding student's awesome internships for the summer - and it's amazing how many places and people my friends get to touch! China, Africa, Europe, South America, they're going everywhere! I wanted something like that, honestly. Something that was that big WOW that got people talking. Somewhere exotic and faraway sounding.

But God has different plans and I'm so thankful He did.

At our club meeting one night one of the devo directors talked about how her plans didn't go the way she thought they were, but His plans in the end were MUCH better than anything she had planned. I talked to her about it after and told her about struggling with the same thing, and then the other devo director comes up to me and is like, "You're looking for an internship? I KNOW JUST THE PLACE."

And that's the story of how I became the summer intern for YMCA of the Rockies in COLORADO.

So don't worry. Just pray continuously. Give thanks to God in all circumstances.

Your plans will fail. They will. It's life, and nothing is guaranteed to 100% work for us.

But God's plans never fail. He's got you, precious child. Don't worry.